" You got to risk it, to get the biscuit". - Unknown.
that day she told me something. she asked me to risk it. at first i just ignored what she said, and keep thinking straight. but now, in the wee hours of a saturday night, im confused. is this what i want? is this my future? will i be able to survive? will i be able to make it? is it worth the shot? the risk? i've been waiting and waiting for a chance, but i know it will never come without sacrifices. maybe what she said is true. i should stop college for a year, go for tryouts, give everything i got, and see how things plan out. not to sound cocky, but i dont want to waste such talent that God gave me. im sure he gave me for a reason, to use it and be a better man, to make my country proud, to make my love ones proud, and most importantly, to make myself happy.
football has always been my life. maybe im just a pussy. too scared of taking chances, of taking risks. i dont even dare to talk to my dad about this. i really want to be the one, on the field, surrounded by eighty thousand screaming fans. i want to be that. i always told iQan and isaac about my dream. to score the winning goal that brings malaysia to the world cup. with my current situation, it will only stay as a dream. i know all this sounds kiddy, and childish, and i should grow up. but this is me. this is what i want. if only i had the balls to tell this to my dad. she really understands me i guess. giving up football cos i have college is just an excuse cos i dont want to face the reality. the reality that im too afraid to make this sacrifice.
thanks for making me realize what i really want in my life. you wont be alone. i love you (:
life is short and you only live once. in my humble opinion, you shouldn't give up the things you love, in this case... football. yeah sure, your dad might not understand or listen to you at first, but will it really make you happy doing what you're currently doing for the rest of your life? and if you're not happy, will he be happy?
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and it IS considered normal for people your age to take a year or two off from college to pursue doing the things that they love. its just that it isn't considered a norm for us asian's.
it has been quite some time since you posted this and i dont know which path you've chosen. but i hope that you dont regret what you've chosen. hey no one's perfect and we all make mistakes. i hope that what you're doing now makes you happy.
wishing you all the best in life. cheers =)