reality.

wow. reality is starting to sink in. i thought i was going to make it, but my name wasnt called. im still shocked. i still cant believe any of this. i think i performed well through out these 3 days. i gave my all, more than 100%. yet i didnt get selected? fuck this shit. where did i go wrong? what did i do wrong? i did whatever a player needs to do. i was the first for the fitness test, performed a fairly good game, but didnt get? why? is it cause im chinese? my skin color is different than yours? im disappointed. sorry to whoever i've let down. my family, coach and girlf. im sorry for not making it.

fucking disappointed.